This painting is a 16" X 20" Acrylic on Canvas Paper.
This was an emotional painting for me. It represents me as a young boy. I had to endure and face things that I wish I hadn't. But in many ways I am glad that I did, because I have grown from them. I spent a lot of time in darkness, physically,mentally, emotionally, socially and spiritually. In the dark I learned that I was alone, there was no pain there. The dark was a good place to be. It was safe. Not long ago I was conversing with a very dear friend (Peg). The topic was basically perception. It was this conversation that lead to this painting. I have found that I often see myself one way and other see me another . In some ways I understand the split. Because I know that I am a jealous of the safety of that little boy that still lives within dark corners of my mind(i.e. soul). I learned concepts of love through him, He is far more compassionate than I am/ He is forgiving, whereas I believe in Blood for Blood, he is slow to anger . I am pissed off at life. Recently while sitting in a circle someone said in reference to me, " I knew Ren before he was Rasta". I smiled and allowed the comment to slip past. He only knows the guardian. When I paint, I am introducing you and sharing with you Darren.
This painting is of a women I do not know. A year or so ago I had the opportunity to get to know this bredren named "T" and after some time he wanted to share his family with me. He had a very beautiful and loving family from what I could see. There was picture of this woman in there,it was a black and white photo. I was drawn into the eyes. I have a thing for eyes, I think they are the most alluring aspect of a woman when dealing with the physical. Absolutely beautiful. I had to paint her. I asked him if he minded. I even offered to do a free picture for him for the opportunity to dance in the light of those eyes for just a while.